| I might look shallow from the surface, jumping from clubs to clubs, gettting numbers here and there, but from deep down, I can only make myself to like only one girl, and I believe i did find this girl. She made me walk across the line that i thought i did never cross. Committement to me was unheard of, I just couldn't do it, and I was afraid to committe into something that has no gurantees. But the girl made me change, now i am willing to take risks that i wasn't able to do so before, she introduced me to have faith, to have faith in relationships. she made me to believe that no matter how far apart we are, we can still "be" with each other and have that butterfly effect. Talking to her has become part of my life, hehe, you might think i am stupid, but it's the truth. When she is sad, it hurts, but not knowing what's wrong makes it even worse. i know i am not the perfect boyfriend, sometimes i am an asshole, i admit i did alot of stuff that i could've prevented myself from doing, i do sincerely apologize for all those, if i can ever use my life line as credits and use it to go back in time to change, i would. long-distance is hard, and most of them..lets just not go there. I am willing to gamble, after all life is nth but a gamble and for this gamble, my bet is my heart. To me, love is something thats prestige, a word that shouldn't be used whenever. it's a word that comes from the deep of the heart. A person can probably use that word once and mean it. I want to tell that girl i love her, but everytime when i want to say it, it wouldn't come out..and being a coward i am, i ended up saying "really like", I feel really bad. I believe when you love someone, u should be able to take care of her, make sure she has the best in everything, as the saying "what my baby want is what my baby get", but right now i can't do that just yet..I am trying really hard to achieve it.. The bet have started, let faith take me, let fate guide me |
